Sunday, June 5, 2011
Celebrities and Back Fat
I've heard people say round two is hard. I privately thought wah, wah, wah, you wimpy weaklings, just get a grip. Bragging alert: I was such a rock star on round one. Willpower of steel. Well, round two has been another story. Had a couple of buck wild, lose my mind, crazy days. Here's the deal, traveling plus weddings plus a cheater pants spouse does not a rock star HCGer make. Nic made me do it!! (Oh, if only I could blame in all on him). I don't like marring my perfect record, but whatever. I'm not going to freak out over it.
My thoughts on weight over the past few days:
1. Watched the Oprah re-run with Valerie Bertinelli and Marie Osmond. I pretty much felt like dog doo. It was all about their weight loss and they showed their "before" pictures. Pictures where they described themselves as unhealthy, out of control and the heaviest they had ever been. Marie's was 165 lbs. Felt SUPER to know that at my 167 lbs I am chillin' in the repulsive zone. Knocked me off my high horse really quick. Nic made me feel better though, he said, "It's their job to be super skinny and awesome. 165 for a celebrity is a big deal." He's right. And I have to just stop comparing myself to anyone else. Er...especially celebrities on Oprah.
2. Met a friend of my husband's. I felt really cute in my clothes that night. My size 14 jeans (I wore an 18-20 in back in January) were falling off and I had a cute top on that I THOUGHT showed off my waist. Apparently I appeared quite pregnant, because I was congratulated on expecting a fourth child. I was so mortified. I wanted to cry. I was proud of myself because I didn't. I didn't play that drama card. I just smiled and dealt with it.
You know what made me feel better though? COMPARING MYSELF TO CELEBRITIES! :) We were given amazing 3rd row center seats to the Garth show at the Wynn and when his wife Trisha Yearwood came out, she was magnificent. She exuded warmth and love and talent. Garth loved her. We all loved her. And she had back fat. Yes she did. Who cares? It was a great wake-up call though. I need to remind myself constantly that my sum total is how I treat people and make them feel. And if I love people and make them feel great in a size 10...all the better, but if not, I'm still as valuable and fantastic.
So, Yes, I have broken the 170 plateau in spite of the alleged taco salad shell and complete wedding buffet dinner I ate. Alleged. The chocolate cake and Fettuccine Alfredo are also Alleged.
I love me. I love others. I'll keep on truckin'.